i'm a die hard northerner. what can i say?


There is hope.

so, you know what? i wish i was from texas. it seems like a neato place to be from. kinky friedman, matthew mcconaghey, larry mcmurtry, they're good alumni to claim right? (are there any women from texas? there must be.) (i don't consider dubya to be from texas-he is strictly old east coast money as far as i'm concerned.) texans have neato accents, and, racism notwithstanding, a fine appreciation for mexican food. nowhere is perfect-chicago isn't exactly known for its progressive politics on race. i don't know, the yummy accent, combined with the laid-back attitude, well, i like it. it seems to me that texans, actually most southerners, usually take things in their stride and don't appear to get overly worked up over things they can't change or things that just aren't that big a deal (by that, i mean things that i don't think are a big deal). they even talk slower, which, i think would have a calming influence on the speaker, even if they are all riled up. i know it's ridiculous to attribute an attitude or character trait to an entire state or part of the country. but most people have no trouble thinking that midwesterners are reactionary hicks who steadfastly refuse to know anything new, so-why not? the thing is i've always felt that i was a little too tightly wound (no snickering, please) and for various reasons (too tedious to go into-childhood, blah, blah, blah) i've always resented my seemingly uncontrollable (over)reactions to things i realize in retrospect are really quite trivial. resentment aside, i have more or less accepted this part of my personality, 'cause really, i'm not going to be here on earth long enough to "fix" everything that's wrong with me. i also have changed my perspective and realized that spazzing out 'cause i programmed my vcr wrong and taped "E! wild on" instead of "buffy" also isn't that big of a deal. i spaz, i rant, it's over. so maybe being from texas would have made me less spazzy to start with. but there really isn't a whole lot wrong with a tantrum every now and then, either.

before -- after

doing: wasting essay-writing time
listening to: john denver
feeling: texan


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written on 2003-05-03 at 1:38 a.m.
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